a free write that will eventually be more structured and to which a friend commented "that accurately represents thoughts i have while sitting here"

Partition. Faceless voice. Black screen. No windows. no sunlight, fresh air, contact, direction. acoustic absorbency. drop ceiling yellowed except for the new ones with rain stains. abandoned recycling pile. paper. service activity log. receipts. sign out. initiative. responsibility. sign in. weekly schedule. program schedule. reporting schedule. on hold. occurrence. staff meeting. buzzing lights. squeaking fan belts. phone calls. 15 minute break. busy work. productivity. billable hours. turnover. mandatory. training. so quiet. so loud. if passion, compassion, heart, wisdom, hope, camaraderie, morale, vision, respect, creativity were veins we'd be cutting ourselves. we'd be cutters. attendance sheets. recruitment. confidentiality. pressboard furniture. keys. backup of backup copy. fiscal. bad coffee. beige & gray. beige & gray. beige & gray. maintenance. intercom. insects.